nothing left.

Breathing seems so easy, but I fight for each and every gasp
I’m sick of speaking of pain, how much longer will it last?
Only for a season? So why does mine run to eternity?
My God, My God, oh save me from this insanity
This curse is within in me, so as I am living I am dying
A gift? If mine, there’s far less joys than crying
I cannot cry aloud because the pain is too severe
And even the joys are met with bitter, bittersweet tears
What You have gifted me it seems you think that I can bear
But I am dying in my grief. I’m dying in despair!

There’s nothing left inside of me.

haunted.

Haunted by visions past, tormenting me in present
I run to find a place that's safe with shelter
While eyes of scorn reduce me to a peasant,
I shout my pleas and cries in helter-skelter.
Though bruised by you and those who do not know,
My silence speaks that you are not my friend.
Preferring death than turn the path I go
And where? I'm sure I'll see it in the end.
The end begins in death, then life - I live today
Barely holding on to what is holding me
So give your best of all your worst this way
I run to find a place that sets me free!

Chased by these demons that are so haunting me
I cry the Truth of what you cannot see.

dream (not her).

Don't let me dream of her tonight
The past is present woe.
I'd like not dream of her tonight
Please let me let her go.
Her claws sink deep into my back
She laughs as my skin crawls.
I scream! No sound. The pain. My back!
As blood drip slowly falls.
Let Go! "Oh no! You're all of mine
Till death we'll never part
And as you bleed, you'll know that I'm
The one who killed your heart.
So die my love, my fool of love!"
I'll die! I shall not live!
"If death is what you wish my love,
Then death I shall not give."
I've died so very long ago,
And yet, I'm still alive.
Between two worlds, no place to go
Faint hope... I barely thrive.
Don't let me dream of her tonight.
I'd rather dream... of you!

hug.

Once young and naive, much more now he knows
And oh how he sees the way the world goes.
They speak of true love, but tis only a word
Money they crave and obey when it's heard.
But Virtue once lost calls to him again
And he'll die alone, than to lose this dear friend
He takes off his mask, revealing the fragile
His flesh 'mongst cold stones, yet still very agile
Soft skin bearing bruises, so easily bleeds
Out red drops of love which also he needs
Two arms open wide, yet passers-by smug
Silently calling, for someone to hug.

up and away.

Up, up and away! To heights alone; not in despair.
As I cling to the darkness in the heaven's night
To see what few eyes in these skies ever dare
And dazzled by the twinkling and sparkling starry light
Flying free and shooting down, the earth below my feet
The envy for those bound to tread and toil the ground
Look up as I look on. Embrace when our paths meet.
Discover as I uncover many mysteries to be found.
I find in You a resting soul to comfort my unrest
You see in me - what do you see? A story to be told
For one to write the tale of woe and glory in my quest
The chapter's final ending, I may never hold.

Held up by the breath of heaven's air
Yet ever yearning the touch of earthly care.

june.

Ah June! The month of birth where flowers bloom
Rains wash and bath its earthly skin
The air so thick and pleasing to consume
To breathe... and sigh this joy within.
Ah June! The sun is ripe with sweetest rays
And moistens flesh that glistens and does glow
Warmth that warms the heart and soul to praise
Summer's the stage and you... the show.
Ah June! Why do you come and leave so soon?
I'll miss the tunes you play me now
I'll miss the star's June Dance before the moon
Giver of smiles, I give mine back, to you and bow.

this world.

I see a new world with two suns. One in the heavens, the other on the earth.
And clouds in the sky, on earth and within the seas. What a world is this that I see!

In this world, birds kiss in mid air. Yes! Two hummingbirds - as the two sun's blaze. Blazing their rays, above and below. They embrace each other with a heartfelt kiss... as they flutter together at wing tips length.

At night... it's day, and the stars fill the skies - twinkling! But still retain their nightly brilliance. It's as if they are standing at an arms distance away. You can pluck one, or two, or three right out of the very blue sky. Stars in the trees and even on a bush on the ground. Oh my! Stars are just everywhere! Everywhere you look they will be found.

Now that I have seen this world... this, new world; I would much like to go. Go and visit this... world. The only concern: how to get there! I have seen it and know it's real. I’ve seen a picture, so it must be real. Mustn't it? I will search this world to the ends of this... world. I must find a way, I simply must! Find a way to get there. Get there. I will get there one day.