love/hate.

Love.
Hate.
I hate Love.
Probably because it grasps me so and won't let go.
Loose me from your grasp!
It chokes me with a warmth that soothes with
Such, sweet, agony.
It's pleasure is my pain - hurting to perfection.
There's nothing left - loving me relentlessly
Loving me to death.
My life was in you.
Tempting me with tastes that torment when taken away,
But I am here. Naked. Shivering before you.
Cold winds hiss, delighting in spite to crush my will.
Yet I won't succumb to ungodly rule.
I've come to realize, these lies but only speak the truth
Of what you fear in me. Fear in me!
You hear in me, though I do not say a word;
And still I reach my arms to you and will not let you go.
I will not let you go.
Hate me? Maybe so.
I will... not!
Love.

this... may it be.

I'm writing to, and for you tonight.
Because this... is all I have.
And even so, the blade I'm given
Cannot cut the depths
Of how I feel.
And I don't want to feel... this!
So I 'm writing to you now.
I will not write of her - not yet,
For in those... words - if they
Exist or could be ever uttered,
Would bring about my very death
In one instant. A good death!
That I am moving closer -
Take in all of these... words.
I've said too much and far too less
And need not make
Of what others call "sense".
But those... who have been touched by
The essence masked within
The craft of what I claim to be,
Know the love inside of me
Flirts within, but lies outside of what
This... mind can barely fathom!
I give my all and nothing simply because I am
As much, not less I want to be; but
Daily find myself falling - failing at every
Attempt.
This... is the life for me?

In this... I pray a seed is planted
Of what this... love should be.

presence.

I stand in the Presence of what I've been searching
Feeling only now that, maybe it's always been there
What now? My body trembles... trembles.
Confused as to if it be delight or fear
I am addicted in an instant, yet bear no guilt
And crave a fix of what I am already feeding
Before I've had my full, I am begging for a fill.
It's this same drug that I'm forever pleading:
"More, give me more. I want more!"
And then this voice... gently whispers

night moon.

Night Moon, I call on you to sing!
Sing a song as I lay down awaiting dreams.
Tell of adventures from times long ago
Of heroes fighting for love and a place where souls can grow.
Night Moon, it's the sweetness of your voice that delights
My heart to thump in anticipation of dark nights.
And we are one. United with you in each day most well spent
Pushing for dreams as I dream of your song
That no ears have heard like this before.
Sing to me Night Moon!
Sing your song to me again once more.

being.

Why was I born? To carry this burden...
Fitting nicely on my back.
Heap on!
Took my vow - nah go bow!
Just ask me how? Secrets I cannot know.
But I know, relatively speaking, that
Time is no master of mine.
Where am I to go in this jungle of brick and stone?
I roam as a king without a throne
But i am not alone. I am not alone.
Convince me against my convictions
That I do not speak the truth!
Otherwise, we are all living a lie.
I've given up all within my very being
And yet still I love... more than I could fathom.
Being.
That's all I have (at least right now)
And share with you. Do you feel... me?
It may not be much, but I give.
It is everything.
Isn't it?

the voice that calls.

I am in love. But this love of mine bears no name.
She calls me. Tender whispers that like light winds,
brush against my soul.
Helpless. Where shall I run to that which has no face?
Straining my eyes - see only a faint image.
Do not torture with your teases. Come closer, speak louder!
Searching the eyes of passers by, and hoping that voice within is the same.
Tell me your name? Let me touch your soft skin.
These lips have been saved for your lips and my Kiss!
Wanting nothing more or less than the voice that calls me.
You are in love. Can you hear me calling?
Quiet your mind for a minute or two... there.
Here I am and will always be. This... will never die!

deep roots.

Sink your roots deep within the warmth of my soil
The moist dark earth feeds love all around you.
Dig deep within the blackness, the work well worth it's toil
Then just lay and rest in me - enjoy this love that's true.
Your skin is silk with softness and blessed your body firm
Now blowing in the summer breeze - light kisses from sun's rays
are planted on your glowing face, I'd like to take a turn;
But I lay low beneath the earth in darkness all these days.
Yet all these days are night to me, and lived a life of death
Until your seeds were planted deep, now know why I'm alive
Resuscitating all my life, you are my every breath
Go deeper still, I beg you! May our love forever thrive.

You are the plant of my life, growing strong these summer days
But deeper still you grow within, and fills my soul with praise!