who are you?

Who are you?
Of what I've made of love's not ever been like this before
And outside of what love once was is nay and all the more
Transcending distance, time and space, it's opened up my eyes
Touched by something mortal's yearn until the day they die
I have but cannot hold, yet held by that which lies in dreams
And though "they" say it cannot be, it's "realer" than it seems.
Who are you?

You breathed upon this flicker, and turned it to a flame
And who can now contain such madness, many call insane?
Yet as a gale within the night that plays on my heart strings
And hence the music of my soul is filled with what you bring
For I am neither worthy of this grace that touched my frame
More blessed than all the angels, yet i long to know your name.
Who are you?

A missing piece to a puzzle? A half that makes a whole?
Endless searching; realms unknown, this mate of my soul
Read between the lines, you bare the name of such Sweetness
Longing for soft lips that kiss and breasts of tenderness
Destiny that calls to you thus calls me forth to sing
Soon happy ever after lying underneath my wing.
Who are you?

Lover or muse or mate of my soul?
An illusion more real than all in this world.

love/hate.

Love.
Hate.
I hate Love.
Probably because it grasps me so and won't let go.
Loose me from your grasp!
It chokes me with a warmth that soothes with
Such, sweet, agony.
It's pleasure is my pain - hurting to perfection.
There's nothing left - loving me relentlessly
Loving me to death.
My life was in you.
Tempting me with tastes that torment when taken away,
But I am here. Naked. Shivering before you.
Cold winds hiss, delighting in spite to crush my will.
Yet I won't succumb to ungodly rule.
I've come to realize, these lies but only speak the truth
Of what you fear in me. Fear in me!
You hear in me, though I do not say a word;
And still I reach my arms to you and will not let you go.
I will not let you go.
Hate me? Maybe so.
I will... not!
Love.

being.

Why was I born? To carry this burden...
Fitting nicely on my back.
Heap on!
Took my vow - nah go bow!
Just ask me how? Secrets I cannot know.
But I know, relatively speaking, that
Time is no master of mine.
Where am I to go in this jungle of brick and stone?
I roam as a king without a throne
But i am not alone. I am not alone.
Convince me against my convictions
That I do not speak the truth!
Otherwise, we are all living a lie.
I've given up all within my very being
And yet still I love... more than I could fathom.
Being.
That's all I have (at least right now)
And share with you. Do you feel... me?
It may not be much, but I give.
It is everything.
Isn't it?

the voice that calls.

I am in love. But this love of mine bears no name.
She calls me. Tender whispers that like light winds,
brush against my soul.
Helpless. Where shall I run to that which has no face?
Straining my eyes - see only a faint image.
Do not torture with your teases. Come closer, speak louder!
Searching the eyes of passers by, and hoping that voice within is the same.
Tell me your name? Let me touch your soft skin.
These lips have been saved for your lips and my Kiss!
Wanting nothing more or less than the voice that calls me.
You are in love. Can you hear me calling?
Quiet your mind for a minute or two... there.
Here I am and will always be. This... will never die!

deep roots.

Sink your roots deep within the warmth of my soil
The moist dark earth feeds love all around you.
Dig deep within the blackness, the work well worth it's toil
Then just lay and rest in me - enjoy this love that's true.
Your skin is silk with softness and blessed your body firm
Now blowing in the summer breeze - light kisses from sun's rays
are planted on your glowing face, I'd like to take a turn;
But I lay low beneath the earth in darkness all these days.
Yet all these days are night to me, and lived a life of death
Until your seeds were planted deep, now know why I'm alive
Resuscitating all my life, you are my every breath
Go deeper still, I beg you! May our love forever thrive.

You are the plant of my life, growing strong these summer days
But deeper still you grow within, and fills my soul with praise!

Poetry In Music: The Poets (2nd reading)

In this clip we feature the Poets L.L. Barkat and Maxidus as they present their work in the 2nd reading.

"Poetry In Music" was held on the night of the 17th of September, 2010.

wealthy.

If dreams be all I have and love, then I am truly rich.
Can they be held within these arms of mine?
Or will I sink in quicksand, or rot within the ditch?
Awaiting for that outstretched hand, or a saving vine.
A line is all I ask of you, I feel our dream has died
And living only as I sleep, then death will be my wake.
My cries! My cries all but ignored, though weary I have tried
Am I alone? Can no one see and lay a hand to take?
In stillness I recall a time when heaven fell on earth
And in these arms and with these lips, love sealed within My Kiss
Now with these eyes I wait to see me rise up from this hell
A dream that just will not let go. The dream that you will miss!

As one who seeks some treasure, now holds to something new;
The dream in me is yet alive, though it has died in you.

at once.

When I met her... again, at once I gazed in her eyes
Needing confirmation in the thing that never lies.
Had I created in her... a sort of super woman friend?
At last I'll know that what was lived was not merely pretend.
My heart beat fast as did my legs the closer I did come
A figure of this wild beauty, she had to be the one
And at first glance the truth had won - a power that was more
Much more than did my mind create - much greater than before.
The world spun round as I did her in my arms off the ground
And will she ever know she symbols something I have found?

(Painting by: Suz Hartman "The Embrace 4")

jilted.

My name is Jilted.
I am the lover that you will never return your love back to.
Yet I keep on giving and giving; gluttonous for punishment.
But I must give what I have, because it is who I am and what
I've been made to be for you.
For my love is pure and right.
Will you one day open the eyes of your heart in this life?
Oh, I wish you could see, but not just selfishly,
but more of all you are and can be.
There’s so much out there just waiting to be grasped.
If only, if only, if only. So call me my name
I am Lover. I am yours.
Jilted Lover.

june.

Ah June! The month of birth where flowers bloom
Rains wash and bath its earthly skin
The air so thick and pleasing to consume
To breathe... and sigh this joy within.
Ah June! The sun is ripe with sweetest rays
And moistens flesh that glistens and does glow
Warmth that warms the heart and soul to praise
Summer's the stage and you... the show.
Ah June! Why do you come and leave so soon?
I'll miss the tunes you play me now
I'll miss the star's June Dance before the moon
Giver of smiles, I give mine back, to you and bow.

love. (x)

this is the last in the series of poems entitled... love. it was with great pleasure to have opened up to past and present writings on this very topic. it has also opened my heart in the sharing of my gifts and much more - gifts: writings, poetry, thoughts, choreography, performance art, dance and my music (the album is forth-coming).

i appreciate all of the kind words and comments of encouragement. i hope you enjoy these words and the adventurous journey that i am on. thank you!

last of... love?

Ah to kiss again... to one day press my lips upon thine.
This time these lips will prove a true gift divine.
I'll not cheapen, aye nay squander such treasure invaluable
Arguably, many see this thing unimaginable
That one would take it's intimacy back from pits of despair
I fear... not! Nor want what has not been given me
And so its stock increasingly rise, as dew's mist does daily.
Agree with me and speak truth; peek through this windowsill
And I implore not deny if but one kiss, on but one day will finally reveal.

love. (ix)

Sing to me with eyes that sparkle so
Twinkling little star has pierced my soul
As mend I do, though well you may not know
One part left to fit this rugged hole.
I dance now that you smile and sing to me!
Though not by name, I merely read the signs
I laugh alas, still you may not agree
Look past the clouds and see that my star shines.
It shines the way it always has before
And fades not, for it only knows it's song
The clouds will pass and soon will be no more
For one plus ones does equal two stars strong!

For soon you'll one day wonder from afar
The twinkling love you feel, is still my star.

love. (viii)

My love, my love, my sweet tenderness
What name shall I call when I call unto thee?
Since Love is blasphemed and trampled a mess
To call thee by such would not do justly.
So give me a name that holds thine esteem
That Love had once held; despised and disgraced.
A name far above the one that had been,
And give back thy throne and crown now displaced.
Down from the depths of my heart to my lips
The forming of such and utterance is bliss
This secret kept safe in spite constant quips,
Until our eyes meet, forever... My Kiss!

This Name is a name that I've given to thee
Now sealed in this heart that was given to me.

love. (vii)

I speak and dream of love and beauty as if it were already mine
The more I desire, the quicker it eludes my grasp
Can I bear the crushing of my heart time after time?
I laugh; can no longer cry and already have died perhaps
Crucify me now! That I may feel a pain greater than the one I bear
Are listening? Can you hear through the doors of my soul?
No. It's apart of me, wishing it or I would disappear
Or gather tiny pieces back together in a whole.
Each piece - a puzzle finest as the dust of the earth
These seeds have but one want - growing whole in love again
But carries with it all I am and all that I am worth
I'll seek until I die and prove my love was not in vain.

All in this world and life may not be as it seems
Reality may lie within the dreamer and his dreams.

love. (vi)

Two souls united. On a journey with one common bond
To live what seems a fantasy mere mortals couldn't dream
Awaken to what lies ahead from tender voices drawn
And lured although the path unknown and eyes have never seen
So hand in hand and step by step, together! Nothing less.
And more, of something to be said while those who pursue bail
No, this one bears the holy seal, all wholly can witness
That love's the common bond that binds and love will never fail

May God bless you as you journey and move about this life
A double portion is in store for future man and wife!

love. (v)

Wild eyes that look to an adventure and to worlds and realms
Yet ever soft and more sincere that melts my heart away
Piercing arrows - powerful! That kills all false esteems
Bare and naked I am here and now before you lay
My eyes can feel your silken hands and how it gently touches
And also how each part of you is crafted to perfection
These hands of mine again will not release you from its clutches
So hand in hand a woven symbol patterns our affection
Still touched am I, in how you saw so easily this soul
That the beat, of my heart now pumps with life anew
Every part of me grips and groans to become whole
That these wild eyes and my desire, explore new worlds with you.

The body, every piece I long for, is a work of art
A masterful creation that so speeds my beating heart

love. (iv)

Your warmth so covers me as no blanket does
My skin responds and glistens from your touch
Each day you're here and why? Is it because
You live to brighten days and give so much?
I wake and see your happy shining face
Your smile's a beam that's filled with pure delight
As evening brings its cool, it can't erase
The thoughts so warm and longings of your sight

I wake to the morning and look to see you soon
My dreams of sunshine, underneath the moon

love. (iii)

Your eyes still shout of love and joy
Lips, faint red and soft silk kisses
Wishing they felt on mine to enjoy
You add your strikes and I'll my misses.
I dare not look upon you just this once
And sink in thoughts of happy never afters
I've had my fill with but one glance
Still look to write a sweet new chapter

If there's a God in heaven up above
We'll meet again, oh my sweet love!

love. (ii)

Can you look upon another with the eyes you've given me?
This Treasure still kept safe and buried deep within my soul
Rare pearl of joy I call to you, though parted by the sea
Wild dreams and foreseen memories of mysteries yet untold
Can Time and Distance stop our hearts that beat a rhythm true?
Then dance with me right now, as I too fill my hearts content
The gift I give is music - songs I sing, I sing to you
Turn up the volume in your soul and ride the waves I've sent
Your eyes have burned an image that can never be erased
It shines and I am begging you to turn to it once more
The beat goes on and pumps and thumps and cannot be replaced
For Time has lost and Distance failed; yet Love's the one Victor

Ahh sweet love, I’ve given in to your embrace
I wait for it to rest in its proper dwelling place...

love.

originally, i had planned to choose but one of my favorites on love for Valentines Day. but after reviewing my archives of writings, i am given to run a series of poems on this topic... love. the deepness of this phenomenon that rarely comes to surface in our culture. may these touch the depths of your soul.

here is the first... enjoy!

Nov. 20, 2007

I push to write of life and love anew
And though so far, I bid it come to me
Again to taste that nectar is now due
Nourishment that calls my soul to thee
Turn not away as if you cannot hear
My music is your song that bares your name
As Time goes on, our Truth so ever clear
Until that day, I drink to you again.

-m.